I tried to cheat.
I tried to separate my emotions from this writing...
I found it came up lacking, wanting
I tried to hide behind events and mask my emotions.
It came up shallow, superficial and empty.
I guess I can't write a regular blog
One about what I did today and how these precious little ones responded
I can't seem to keep a record of activities but emotions.
Emotions that drive me to the King
See I used to cheat and let my emotions sit upon the throne of my heart.
Their rule was chaotic, irrational and full
Until I learned how that's not the full we are designed for.
So I released full rule to my King and He set order to what was out of order.
He helped me arrest those emotions that ran wild within me
Wrestle with imagination, casting it down;
He and I were left standing...
Victorious over my old self.
So now any day I try to cheat, I'm exposed by the superficial.
Any day I work hard to hide to submerge myself in a dunk tank of shallow.
I drip with whats empty, with whats lacking the eternal;
Revealing my foolishness.
I guess I'm not allowed to write a precious blog of collected fun and memories.
For me He set up a standard where that would be me cheating, running, dripping wet with foolishness.
Instead my King pronounced a different edict
One that harnesses my deep emotions, exposes humanness and reveals Him.
Now I must ride like the tamed Stallion, arrested by loves freedom and driven as I was supposed to be.
